Wednesday, January 7, 2009

In Honor of Oprah's Fat-Again Show

I am fat. I haven't been on the scale this year, but I'm somewhere in the size 18 / 220-pound range.

Like Oprah, I've succeeded in losing weight and getting down to my ideal size. Also like Oprah, I haven't succeeded in keeping it off.

In 2001, I joined Weight Watchers and over the course of 18 months, I lost 85 pounds. I managed to keep at least 50 of it off for five years.

And then, I fell completely off the wagon. Under the wagon, in fact. In between the wheel ruts, with a bag of cookies, a vat of chocolate and a liter of Diet Coke.

So I feel a lot of empathy when Oprah talks about how mad she is that even though she's accomplished so much in her life, this one area continues to kick her big, bootylicious posterior.

But the difference between me and Oprah is, I'm not really mad at myself anymore. I have empathy for myself, because I realize that my weight is not a personal failure, it's a symptom of larger issues that are going on in my life.

I'm not actively trying to lose weight. I'm actively trying to love myself and my life right now, just as it is, even though it sucks in many, many ways.

And I can honestly say that most days, I feel happier and prettier than I ever did when I was skinny. Certainly saner.

10 comments:

Allison Brown said...

Thanks for once again sharing a part of yourself in a way that is so helpful to women :-)

Chrys said...

Have you seen this?

A Fat Rant:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUTJQIBI1oA&eurl

This lady is great :-)

Don't Be a Slut said...

Chrys, yes I have seen the Fat Rant video, and thanks to you, I just watched it again. It's so true ... especially the part about the clothes.

SinSecret said...

This was really a good read. I love the under the wheel part.

The fact that you're so open and straightforward about your body size says a lot about you. Its good to be okay with your body, regardless of your size. As long as you're happy, it's beautiful, and you should always love it.

Loving your blog ^-^

<3
Sin

Cascia said...

Good for you! You have a nice blog here. Thank you for visiting Healthy Moms.

Jennifer said...

Well I think you are beautiful! And I'm glad most days you feel happier and prettier too!

izzie_tisha said...

Well I comented... but it isn't here... and the worst is that I can remember what I said...lol
The main thing is that it is lovely to see you... happy too! :)***

Iamfat said...

You can eliminate weight naturally with help of some herbs/Diets , its worth try

Cheron L. Hall said...

loving the traditional garb in this pic! I know this blog was done months ago, I'm taking the eccelerated crash course in "don't be a slutology" but I've been having my own issues with weight and although I'm not quit as big as some people think, I am used to being very petite so for me, I feel uncomfortable in my skin and for others, well...I'm "thick"...ugh...hate that word...but anyway...good luck to you...

I was listening to something on the radio the other day about increasing Vitamin D in our diets in order to lose weight...? I unno if there is any truth to it...but I'll look into it...

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